You know that saying…. “One day you will wake up and realize I was the best thing that ever happened to you, and when you do, I will be waking up next to the person who already knew…”
That is what life the new motto for me; however, I was so busy wallowing in the loss of someone that didn’t deserve a moment of my time that I just about let someone very worth it slip away. After many months of trials and tribulations; letting someone go, because I wasn’t ready to let anyone have “his” spot in my life, and letting “him” walk into my life again, only to walk away even quicker, I think I have finally figured it out.
I decided to give the one that didn’t get a fair shot the first time, the shot that he honestly deserved. I decided to put the effort into the dating relationship that, in the past, I put into trying to avoid it. I mean, let’s be honest, here is someone that I liked a lot, get along with well, understands having a child, enjoys spending time with me as much as I enjoy spending time with him, who makes me smile, makes me laugh and all of the other things that I desired so much out of someone else…. I fought the feelings for so long, and even after months of not speaking, there was a cosmic energy that brought us back to the same spot. The same level of comfort; like we hadn’t missed a day in those 6 months.
“If you love someone let them go…if they come back to you, they are yours, if they don’t….it wasn’t meant to be…”
I let him go. I forced him out of my life. For all the wrong reasons; and yet, he came back, and it has been great ever since. I am not perfect, and don’t claim to be, and neither does he, and so far, we are both able to look beyond the imperfections and make each other very happy.
We are happy together, can’t wait to see each other when we are apart, and we smile, a smile those on the outside can see, and a smile that on the inside I can feel.
