Fly, Fly Away

You know that feeling where your stomach is doing flip-flops, your skin is crawling with excitement, and you can't catch your breath? That feeling of butterflies in your stomach? I know that feeling all to well. I used to place the future of any relationship on the presence or absence of butterflies. If the butterflies where present, then I obviously had an undeniable interest. I felt that butterflies meant chemistry. Butterflies meant excitement. Butterflies meant future. If someone did not cause butterflies, then I must not feel a connection with him, er, right? Well I am ditching that thought. You know why? What to butterflies do? Fly, fly away. Butterflies are beautiful creatures that come into sight long enough to capture your attention, amaze you with the beauty, then fly away quickly leaving you yearning for more.

Just like the butterfly, those who cause those butterflies, fly away. They come into your life, cause excitement; cause captivation; then they depart, as quickly as they appeared, leaving you in search of that excitement that was removed. Try to chase a butterfly, they will flutter their wings fast enough to put them just out of reach. No matter how high you climb, how fast you run, or how high you jump, they will not allow themselves to be captured. 

So maybe this whole time I had it backwards. I sought the presence of butterflies and didn't understand that the presence also meant that one day they would flutter away; because butterflies weren't mean to be kept. I thought that without the butterflies that meant it wasn't meant to be, when in all actuality, the absence meant that they wouldn't flutter away. They wouldn't put themselves just out of reach. 

So while before I focused on the presence, I am now focusing on the absence. If they cause the butterflies that just don't land, they will be set free to fly, fly away. 

Just sayin...